Milestones

I wrote this tonight. kindergarten roundup posts are all over my Facebook feed. As happy and excited I am for so many of these little ones that I care for- it reminds me of Connor. Being pregnant with so many people so close to my due date hasn't really effected me for years- seems that this is one of those times that will sting a bit. Last year I had the gift of distraction and happiness in registering Wy when Emma would have gone- this year I sat at home. I didn't even volunteer because the thought of it hurt. It isn't a jealousy, it isn't being unhappy for my friends- I can't really describe what it is. So I wrote- 

I got it out

And I feel better. 

Milestones- 

Such a gift as a parent 

Knowing your child is heading 

In the direction you imagined

Sending them on 

This little path

Just like you planned

Just like you dreamed

Just like you imagined 

But there are the times

When you don't get the chance

When there are no milestones 

When life was met with death

This doesn't change 

What you planned

What you dreamed 

What you imagined 

Except for the simple truth

That it never will be

Those who share their birthyear 

Move on and grow

And although most of the time 

It is good to see them 

Grow

Play

Learn 

And reach these new things

Sometimes it is a reminder 

That you aren't here 

That you won't be able to do

Any of those things 

That I planned

That I dreamed 

That imagined

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